hour by hour, lots of deep breaths

by becca
(kentucky)

I'm still hiding from my ex and I have a son by him. He is trying to take him from me but he's so abusive and horrible that I am going to have to fight him in court and get full custody.

I'm lucky I have friends as witnesses and pictures ... but I'm so scared to go out and I feel like I'm not worth a crap. I feel like everybody sees me and sees a low ugly woman and I'm really trying... I just am so scared all the damn time and flashbacks are always bothering me.

I hate that man, he destroyed my home, my truck, made it to where I had to move and uproot my son from his friends.

What helps me? Focusing on how I used to be before I met him ... I was so happpy and that memory helps push me on every day, I'll find that happiness again!